Tuesday, July 8, 2025

The Failure to See God Is Not a Problem God Has a Problem With

Strangest recent symptom of something: I more and more a little each day actively don’t want to write in tablets, as in with pencils on paper, I’m still in the It’s OK to Take a Day Off, Dude stage, and it is ok to take a day off, isn’t it? Reading’s weirder: while I’m failing a novel I’m thinking about next novels and when I find the one I’m most thinking of and start it within ten pages I’m thinking this is not working, what does it have to do with this current life, and start thinking about the next failure. Weirder still: I *can* still read non-fiction which I don’t, exactly: introductions only, thank you, please give me your thesis and outline for proof, I’ll skip the proof, except with Hobsbawm, in this case, a segment a day starting today and especially when I’m in Maine with L, two weeks from today we will be there, two weeks there, his *Age of Extremes.* Lots of people whose opinions on music I value lauded Cindy Lee’s *Diamond Jubilee,* I got what they got the first four or five listens but past weekend listening one more time I now get what they get





And have listened two times more. No more 100 link grids for now for me: if I’m hammering the same issues daily I don’t need to do dozens on that issue daily especially if it’s a daily duh, maybe? Currently attempting to not click through on every link I see verifying what I think myself, it's hard not to. I've been reminded why I don't copy/paste from ggl files to ggl blggr now that I'm typing again, you'd think they'd talk but they don't. Tomorrow I dress up in a cat suit and dance with Bjork for the 37th time, so have a more constrained grid than usual I am pleased to abandon below before the links that are stale go stale below (think about the adjective *stale,* there is nothing staler than stale)


You only thought you knew how ruthlessly evil the sociopath and sadist Mehpen Stiller, the Trump-Whisperer, is
A Practical Utopian’s Guide to the Coming Collapse
You only thought you knew how batshit crazy Theter Piel is
Today in know your batshit crazy sociopathic shitlords
Your reminder that Christian societies, historically, ever since the Roman takeover, are the most violent societies in existence, and it isn't close
Indiana church tells LGBTQ+ community to kill themselves or they will face the death penalty under Trump
Eleven Theses on Technological Hype as Capital
How the Trump Show Outwits Reality
""Fury over our Nazi propaganda proves we should continue to publish Nazi propaganda." - NYT senior reporter
The Catalyst for Declining Political EngagementReconfiguring Hegemony
Don't Mess With ZohranThe small and dreary political imagination of billionaires
Unelected President Stephen MillerThe Mamdani moment
NEW POLL: A Hebrew University poll shows that roughly 82% of Jewish Israelis agree with the genocidal idea that there are “no innocents in Gaza.”
"What's wrong this headline? Mamdani "faces scrutiny" **ONLY AND EXCLUSIVELY** because NYT decided to make this a "thing."
"There was nothing to salvage. The New York Times is the propaganda wing of the Israeli government"
Musk's media coverageGILDED CITY
ICEBlock app developer had ‘better watch out’ says US attorney general
The Rise of Pro Wrestling in the American Psyche
MaggieLaugh, I am rereading, or was before I started thinking of other novels, a chapter a day, *The Mill on the Floss,* takes a while to get cooking, and I like Maggie as much if not more than Dorothea{ feuilleton }
2025 July Half-PortraitAlternate US-40 from Cumberland to Keyser Ridge is my favorite drive in Maryland
undoneTopolect in the big cityEscape Velocity

THE GODS OF FAIRNESS John Ashbery

The failure to see God is not a problem
God has a problem with. Sure, he could see us
if he had a hankering to do so, but that’s
not the point. The point is his concern
for us and for biscuits. For the loaf
of bread that turns in the night sky over Stockholm.

Not there, over there. And I yelled them
what I had told them before. The affair is no one’s business.
The peeing man seemed not to notice either.
We came up the strand with carbuncles
and chessmen fetched from the wreck. Finally the surplus buzz
did notice, and it was fatal to our project.
We just gave up then and there, some of us dying, others walking
wearily but contentedly away. God had had his little joke,
but who was to say it wasn’t ours? Nobody, apparently,
which could be why the subject was never raised
in discussion groups in old houses along the harbour,
some of them practically falling into it.
Yet still they chatter a little ruefully: ‘I know
your grace’s preference.’ There are times
when I even think I can read his mind,
coated with seed-pearls and diamonds.
There they are, for the taking. Take them away.
Deposit them in whatever suburban bank you choose.
Hurry, before he changes his mind – again.

But all they did was lean on their shovels, dreaming
of spring planting, and the marvellous harvests to come.

Wednesday, July 2, 2025

At First, as You Lie in Bed in Your Motel Room or Mobile Home It Merely Disrupts Your Sleep, Your Nervous System. Later You Kill Your Dog and Wife

Done building the latest gridolinks for this barky place, though this time links added since last Saturday in (my head) the chronological order of when I discovered them rather than sorting them thematically per usual as I have every single fucking time not only since I emigrated to gridolinks but when I merely bulleted, and all the monologue in the grid after a link the immediate reaction to that link in real time



These two paragraphs partially stolen from other place. T
he hexjeff above painted over the days of this gridolinks. These hexjeffs repel people, I’ve been told I’d be a nobodY instead of a nobody if I didn’t post them. The gridolinks calm and corrode and coordinate me and help diffuse my anger, hexjeff’s save me. The above is today's especially fat-assed and angry gridolink’s album cover. Remember when Coil covered Soft Cell? Woke up at 530 this morning with it in my head





I will try to not start a new grid today, wish me luck, I'm curious to see if I start one despite trying not (as opposed to not wanting to, which I will and will need to consciously not) to
"SCOTUS is aiming to undo birthright citizenship and the VRA and keeps gutting the first amendment, while GOP is set to pass a bill that outlaws green energy and kills medicare, so Hakeem is ready to do what must be done: direct all fire at the charismatic leftist promising better through solidarity"
"With this budget, ICE alone would have nearly as large a detention operation as all 50 states' prison systems combined. Bigger budget than the Marine Corps. Police-state levels of spending"
"All fascisms are interconnected as Israel's ambassador to Serbia demonstrated by saying that Srebrenica shouldn't have been adjudged as an act of genocide. Ironically, ultra-nationalists are really internationalists in this particular way"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"They can grovel all they like, the cops can sabre-rattle all the want, the politicians and tabloids can condemn all the want, we're not shutting up. The IDF are genocidal murderers. Death, death to the IDF"
"Fortunately the Democrats are leading the way in critical public messaging about the imputed foreign policy preferences of a single mayoral candidate"
"I can't get over how we're being asked to pretend "Death, death to the IDF" is some kind of hate crime at the exact same time IDF soldiers are telling the Israeli press they're being ordered to massacre starving civilians at aid sites"
FINDING BEAUTY IN FAKE FLOWERS
"This was never said but here it is in quotes on the front page of a national newspaper. It’s a calculated lie and it’s libelous"
"If scandal-plagued Cuomo had won, every major Dem official in America woulda instantly endorsed him. Dems refusing to quickly endorse Mamdani - who has none of those scandals - is a tell about the party's priorities & who they still think they answer to"
Magastan is building a loyal-only-to Magastan police/military megaforce while simultaneously speed-building concentration camps, yo
TODAY'S MONOLOGUE!
"Yes we must absolutely be temperate and measured in our response to a literal army of occupation literally carrying out a genocide, with the support of our government, which is literally criminalising opposition to this atrocity. I mean, come on, let's be reasonable, eh kids?"
"It's important to understand that Democratic Party elites don't see this as exciting potential. They see it as a terrifying threat. What good is Democrats winning elections if the current elites aren't running things anymore?"
"We have enough information to conclude that the law won't save us"
"The idea that this process might be stopped by a free and fair election in 2026 or 2028 is absurdly optimistic. Unless age catches up with him, Trump will appoint himself as President for life, just as Xi and Putin have done"
Adding, Vance will too if Trump dies
"Why Did a 75-Year-Old Man in Poor Health Just Die in ICE Custody?"
Maggie'sPale Criminal, pt 2{ feuilleton }
"The manufactured outrage and obscene abuse of state powers surrounding Kneecap, Palestine Action, and Bob Vylan are all meant to scare you into silence. Because they know they've lost the argument"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"We should all be disgusted by the flood of anti-Muslim remarks spewed in the aftermath of Zohran Mamdani’s victory in the NYC mayoral primary — some blatant, others latent. Shame on the members of Congress who have engaged in such bigotry and anyone who doesn’t challenge it"
My state's senior Senator, not as shitty as most Democrats, thankfully (though I suspect the new junior Senator is going to be a typical Democratic shitsmear if her early voting is a sign
"This will draw no headlines and certainly no outrage, because fundamentally our media considers actual violence against innocent Palestinians more acceptable than violent words against the soldiers carrying it out"
Maybe he's just a bad person
"Democrats who stop doing stuff like this as soon as the winds change are making it *very clear* what we knew all along: that they will only do the bare minimum and only if there are zero consequences to them. the exact opposite of having principles"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"Mamdani gave a nuanced answer about "Intifada" so nobody cares, but here's a Republican Congressman spreading the conspiracy that the Pritzker family, a wealthy Jewish family, is trying to turn kids trans. This is a common conspiracy on the right that combines antisemitism with transphobia"
"By making federal law enforcement nothing but deportations, Trump 2.0 may induce an increase in crime, which the right-wing media distortion machine will paint as inherent proof of immigrant criminality. We have to stop a vicious circle before it starts"
"Nothing to see here, just footage Al Jazeera obtained of Israeli forces murdering a Palestinian man carrying a sack of flour on his back"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"belaboring the obvious but it feels historically significant that an entire generation has been witnessing the worst human acts imaginable broadcast every single day for two years while governments and institutions make it illegal to talk about them — unbelievably crazy-making"
Supreme Court Agrees to Hear GOP Effort to Further Gut Campaign Finance Law
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"What do we talk about when we talk about “globalize the intifada?”
"Since when it is radical to ask that you care about your fellow human beings in their full humanity? That's what it means to fundamentally have a politics of any kind. It's also part of what writers and critics innately do in writing. This is not a big ask"
"Put another way: Project 2025 let right-wing legal groups sketch out the agenda for a new GOP DOJ. Do you think "Project 2029" will hand the DOJ section to the ACLU? No. The opposite. It's about getting a Dem message disconnected from left-wing groups"
Project 2029, Democrats ARE just like the Democrats in The Onion stories
"How should people be allowed to oppose genocide? Let’s ask the people doing it"
My visitation will be scheduled at the appropriate time later (there are so many to eliminate), another advantage of being nobody
"BREAKING: A source tells me that the Trump administration has shut down public access to every single National Climate Assessment, the Congressionally-mandated quadrennial report assessing how climate change is affecting the U.S.
"We knew this day could come but here we are. The 2026 proposed @NOAA budget shutters all world-class federally funded meteorological, oceanographic, and climate labs in America. Included is @HRD_AOML_NOAA , a fixture for over 50 years in Miami. Hundreds of top scientists tossed"
"A Lesson From Martin Luther King, Jr. About "Globalizing the Intifada"
"Next time we should steer more directly into the iceberg"
FART!This fart farting for fame and fortune sniffs and adores his own farts
"We Apologise for This Temporary Breakdown in our Breakdown"
Art of the GaslightMake fun of them
The Rage of Billionaires and the Frenzy to Stop Zohran Mamdani From Becoming New York’s Mayor
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"It's utterly obscene for anyone in the US to pretend they're not living in the largest and most lethal criminal enterprise in history"
In the Court of the Ochre King
"Children have been shot in other conflicts I have covered. But never before have I watched as soldiers enticed children like mice, into a trap, and murdered them for sport.”
"Analysts make a mistake when they describe the Supreme Court's speed and docket as set in stone. The modern SCOTUS can move basically as fast or as slow as it wants. If it wanted to block any of Trump's unconstitutional moves very quickly, it could. Not doing so is a choice"
"I also underline that this farcical bullshit is a direct consequence of the War On Terror, when political elites bullshat themselves into claiming support for America’s imperial devastation of huge tracts of the planet was brave and principled, and that opposing it was some frightful fanaticism"
Get your Alligator Alcatraz concentration camp gear here!
Concentration camp porn is a terrific way to keep racist crackers distracted while they die because they lost their medicare and only hospital within a hundred miles of Bumfuck closed, and crackers will really jerk off while dying when Trump starts sending the yous and me of the world
Sheeyit, I would go to this in a nanosecond if the nearest show to DC wasn't Louisville KY
"The Big, Beautiful Bill assigns each American a billionaire who will live the American dream for you. You can check in on your billionaire at intervals and see how he is using your money. Maybe he’s building a 19th pool. Maybe he’s buying himself some formerly public land! Maybe he’s taking a Supreme Court justice on a dream vacation! Maybe he is reupholstering the Statue of Liberty to hide the poem. Maybe he’s throwing a Great Gatsby–themed cocktail hour as part of his wedding extravaganza! Maybe he’s replacing his blood with transfusions from his “blood boys.” Maybe he has bought hundreds of eggs and is pelting the house of a mere hundred-millionaire with them. Maybe he has bought some $TRUMP coin and is attending a special bash! There’s never a dull moment for the lucky beneficiaries of this wonderful bill!
"This must be the most vile, racist, truly Nazi statement from a European leader in decades"
"Shimon Atiya is a settler from an illegal outpost near Hebron, but last night he decided to settle in the yard of a Palestinian family in the village Umm al-Khair. Listen to the terrified toddlers sobbing & see the criminal's happy smug face"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"It’s insane that a revolving door of Democrats are going on television to denounce Mamdani while Republicans shepherd through the most destructive piece of legislation in recent memory"
There is a chance, small but bigger than ever before, this the last grid, last post 
"In the past 24 hours, Trump’s threatened Elon Musk, Thomas Massie, Japan, a judge in Israel, the CEO of AT&T, Jerome Powell, Canada, Thom Tillis, a Forbes reporter, Harvard, & migrants with being eaten by Burmese pythons in the Everglades, while releasing a new line of colognes"
"Sure would be nice if the leaders of the Democratic Party could be doing a full court press against the worst piece of legislation in US history, rather than refusing any public interviews cause they can't figure out how to appease their AIPAC backers without being super racist"
Entrepreneurism: The Catalyst for Declining Political Engagement
"as ABC's This Week, NBC's Meet the Press and CNN's State of the Union all demagogue and smear Mamdani today over a phrase he never said remember that in 631 days of genocide in Gaza none of these shows have ever once platformed a single Palestinian or Palestinian-American"
A guide to fielding even the most ridiculous anti-Palestinian smears
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
I HATE MOTHERFUCKING DEMOCRATS
"human suffering and excruciatingly painful death is just another form of entertainment to joke about for these sadists"
"It's a blood libel to hit *play* on our genocidal tiktoks"
"Bold. Now do the Israeli genocide of Gazans, asshat, that you have helped fund"
"Trump calls for deporting US citizens: "We also have a lot of bad people that have been here for a long time ... many of them were born in our country. I think we ought to get them the hell out of here too, if you want to know the truth. So maybe that'll be the next job."
Reminder: these links in the chronological order I found them, I wrote about you and me in the concentration camps before I saw the above link
"this is it, folks. this is the showdown. nothing can be off the table in this fight, they're not gonna follow rules. we either stop this from happening or just watch our communities get murdered and wait to get fed into the labor and death camp"
Some of us have been screaming about motherfucking shitlords and their crackerchrister motherfuckers and their motherfucking professional Democratic accomplices for motherfucking decades, and snide motherfuckers called us crazy
"They're not just killing, they're taking joy in killing. Butchering journalists, aid workers, doctors, artists, poets. Sniping children in the head. Burning hospital patients alive. Shelling families begging for scraps of food. And still, they have the audacity to play victim"
"very striking how every right-wing conspiracy freakout was just a prophecy of what they planned on eventually doing - whether it was Jade Helm or FEMA camps, the moment they had the opportunity to make these imaginary monstrosities they came up with come to life, they did"
Israeli terrorists MOCK a CHILD that just lost his MOTHER!
Mamdani's statement on Trump's threat to arrest and deport him, Mamdani is not going to save us but I'm sure as fuck gonna give him a chance cause who the fuck else
"Thomas Kincade, the great American who stole from his employees and peed on Winnie the Pooh. The perfect patriot for our times"
"Opinion | Yes, I voted for Trump’s megabill despite knowing it will harm my constituents. But if I hadn’t, I’d be primaried by someone who’d vote just like me but not give anti-Trump comments on background to The Times"
"I know this is hard to accept, but when a liberal says "there is no alternative to markets" and a socialist says "actually here's a proof-of-concept state-run solution" that is not "hate" that is just basic and conventional disagreement"
"Read whatever you want to… and read it proudly! In the idiocracy that is America (or Albion for that matter), to read is to belong to an increasingly endangered species, one I have great affection for. (PS I love INFINITE JEST)"
"Living under a regime of pure evil, whose main goal every hour of every day is to ensure as many human beings as possible suffer horribly, really really sucks
Blog about recent (non)reading
There will be no real presidential election in 2028
"Zohran Mamdani Eats ‘Like An Animal’ Says Woman Who Ate Dog Food On Air"
"So Trump gets $16 mil while Paramount admits mo wrongdoing and they release interview transcripts which they already did anyway. So it’s a bribe. It’s literally just a bribe"
UN Expert Accuses Major Corporations of Profiting Off of Israel's Assault on Gaza
Quiet, West Bank Pogrom in Progress
Americans Have Never Been Less Proud to Be American, New Poll Finds
"I used to think of vice signaling as a minor point about political communication. now I wonder if we need to develop it as a core aspect of political theory, at least as far as the Americas are concerned"
The Ascendance Of Algorithmic Tyranny
"If only there were a clinically proven, totally safe way to prevent diseases like measles…"
"Alligator Alcatraz was built in 8 days. It took just over a week to create a massive concentration camp. Remember this the next time those in power claim they can't house the homeless, feed the starving or provide medical care to the poor. They can, they don't want to"
"Hitler: The trains start tomorrow. Chuck Schumer: We have renamed the trains to "evil choo choos"
Browsing at the Gitmo gift shop
That's as shitty a place to stop as any
Bought this yesterday at Bandcamp, holyfuck, my drone/ambient genes are more rampant the clusterfuckier everything gets






POPULATION CONTROL IN GILLETTE

Tom Clark

The coal trains go through all night long
with a racket like all of hell being unleashed as noise.
At first, as you lie in bed in your motel room or mobile home
it merely disrupts your sleep, your nervous system. Later you kill
     your dog and wife

Saturday, June 28, 2025

And if to withstand this nocturnal pollution of the tiny wanton stars with bent hook clauses of misprision I’m supposed to sing the melody of an unexpecting part. . .

Posting 50+ links, all but a few clusterfuckful, on the last Saturday of June in the middle of the Blog Days of Summer a massive Fuck Me in futility, earnestly desired and justly deserved. This is how I process, and to process more I need dump what I've processed. It's not the pings: 999 of 1000 pings I currently get are bots, dozens of bots, thousands of pings a day - I hope you're still here but I'm not scrolling the logs to see if yes and if yes who - it's readying myself for in increasingly inevitable and rapidly approaching moment when I may need to protest with more of my body than my typing fingers (though a few continually warn me my typing fingers are sufficient to get the rest of my body punished). Here, this is for the surveillance bots: yes, Kate Bush has one of two permanent seats in My Sillyass Deserted Island Five Game and the single *Babooshka* of her brilliant third album *Never for Ever* was released 45 years ago yesterday





Netanyahu Says It's Antisemitic For Israeli Soldiers To Describe Their Own Atrocities
The Israeli genocide of Palestinians continues, yo
"Thus, the bankruptcy of the European ‘West’ was compounded, and the industrial mass murder of the Jews ‘repaired’, through an impossible political arrangement: Israel. Shlomo Sand offers the brutal summary: ‘Europe vomited us, the Jews, onto the Arabs of Palestine.’"
Netanyahu and the Imprisoner's Dilemma
IDF Soldiers Ordered to Shoot Deliberately at Unarmed Gazans Waiting for Humanitarian Aid
"When they say Mamdani is a bigot, they mean that anyone who opposes this is a bigot"
MCPS teacher sues MoCo school board after principal prohibits display of Palestinian flag sticker
What Zohran Mamdani Means for the Anti-Monopoly Movement
"Most elections are conflicts over who will run an existing system, with the candidates offering tweaks to what is essentially a stable political order. But a few elections are what I will call “system defining,” where a rising coalition, reflecting a new set of political demands, contests with an old order, seeking to re-gear the basics of how our institutions operate"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"Rep. Andy Ogles -- who lied about his college major, who lied about graduate work at Dartmouth, who lied about his financial disclosures, who lied that he had been a cop, who lied he was an international sex crimes expert, and who knows what else -- is now spreading lies about other politicians too"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani (Motherfucking New York Democratic Senator edition)
"Mamdani won a higher % of votes from Jewish NYers than from many other ethnic or religious demographics, won the endorsement of Lander & Nadler. It seems the bourgeois press will not stop until Jews conform to their Zionist, Islamophobic narrative. This shit is tired"
Zohran's Historic Win: 16 Takeaways
"I'm a 58-year-old retired roofer from Zanesville, OH who has no relationship with his children and has been banned from 4 separate Chili's locations for berating staff, and I have deep concerns about the Democratic candidate for mayor of New York City, a place I have never been"
That Democrats en masse aren't screaming about masked goons refusing to show badge or give name and disappearing people to South Sudan is all you need know about Democrats, including Zohran Mamdani, who is not going to save you
"While masked, heavily armed, unidentified men are grabbing people off the streets, senior Democrats are either nowhere to be found or making milquetoast statements"
What is a democratic socialist?
"When he decided to inflict his presence on New York City again, centrist Democrats lined up to support him. Democrats who’d called for his resignation a few years earlier told voters he would be a great mayor. The logic was transparent: Give the bastard a second chance so the left doesn’t get one at all"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"Between the expulsion of Hogg and the freakout over Mamdani, it seems Dems are responding to their problem with young men by saying "fuck you, we don't need your votes." Which is really an interesting strategy. We'll see how it works out"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
"Uh oh. Mamdani’s about to lose the racist child-fucker vote"
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
When the ickiest people in the world LIKE Zohran Mamdani
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
The shittiest people in the world hate and fear Zohran Mamdani
Meet the Shitlords Profiting Off Trump’s Deportations
"one of the projects of the court is to expand the ability of states to pursue reactionary ends and constrain the ability of the federal government to set minimum standards *or* of democratic-led states to expand upon existing rights"
Quite possibly the shittiest shitlord if not in fact the antichrist too
"Clinton made Summers his Russia viceroy overseeing Yeltsin's catastrophic neoliberal reforms—resulting in rise of Putinism. Then Obama put Summers in charge of the US economy—giving us Trumpism. Nothing is more destructive than Larry Summers' advice"
Billionaires’ wealth surged $6.5tn over past decade, Oxfam reports
"If it was not clear before, it is undeniable now: the President, Congress, and Supreme Court no longer support and defend the Constitution"
Inside The Secretive Network that Shaped the Right-Wing Media Machine
"The guy who authored the majority opinion in Citizens United v. FEC and opened the floodgates for infinite dark money in politics wants us all to know that "freedom is at risk." No shit Sherlock. You're the one to blame."
The A-Z of MarxismGleichschaltung
Thread: it's not a coincidence that America's democracy has become significantly less democratic at the same time that mass surveillance has grown.
"These 37 House Dems agree with Republicans that an adult international student sitting in a parked car with a can of beer should be deported"
I guarantee you that if someone wearing a shirt with a Free Palestine tshirt had shot and killed elected Republicans this would still be driving a media hysteria
There is not a single Democrat of oomph throwing daily shitfits against this
A Week for the Ages in the Annals of Trump Suck-Uppery
"Even when it comes to the president’s most serious power, Trump has established that he will do whatever produces the images he likes"
I know I've said this a zillion times in a zillion different ways, but Trump understands that EVERYTHING IS A TV SHOW
Trump’s Darwinian America
I have Iranian-American friends and they are scared to death for themselves and their children
Toward a Communist Universalism and the Militancy We Desire
The Courts Just Made Our Libraries Sitting Ducks For AI Plundering
Avedon Carol's occasional links
Spud-ologyGSOH, SBS#1522
Reissue of the Week: Coil’s *Black Antler*s






CONGRATULATING WEDGE

Alice Notley

All things belie me, I think, but I
look at them though. Well boys, at
least you’re not dead, right? What’s
the date today? Until something. What?
Of the lady of the whitening blow.
I’m ashamed to keep on babbling
as if I’ve always been oneself,
diamond flow through. Humble
flannel skeleton. Grin, laugh unbecoming
Living at the bottom of the water may
have been obvious all the time. But
I forget. What’s my plot? Hand
of a child, paw of an animal. Paint
it red & make a pawprint in the psalter.
Protect her & give her back her hat
Entangle her dreams in demotic and
Warm her feet; cheat the judge
& protect the tree from which he was carved.


                                  *

And now that I’ve explained the situation
Jesus my frame hurts, you say.
Fucking pain. Hey come & empty my ashtray
once more & don’t get so excited. A
gentle heart was broken. Whose? No one’s
It’s a figure like a frame among
medlars & briars. Hand me that piece of
that, just that, yeah. I don’t mean it,
I’ve never meant anything because that’s
not what I do, in the mountains I call home
How can I tell you of my wound? it’s
round & silver & headstrong, it’s
nothing more than temperament born
of a custom involving a circuitous journey
This is all wrong. It rains today, my
son’s singing love songs of this
country, already being ten.


                                  *

And if to withstand this nocturnal pollution of the tiny
wanton stars with bent hook clauses of misprision
I’m supposed to sing the melody of an unexpecting part. . .
Hey a pretty honey come a listen to me
while I evening, darling, your messages,
what would you think then? But I
wouldn’t do that. Light surrounded oranges
towels clouds. You don’t think you’re my you.
Not here not you. You still think you’re he. she.
Because I wouldn’t “you” you, would I? I only
“you” some other he. she. I
who write poems. When she writes them,
it’s different. . .A world of words, right?
It’s only my version of The Entertainer
Nothing truly personal, I’m way above that.
I’ve learned about it for a lot of days. I’ve
been to see the doctor & you have to have shots
for it. 17 balls of yarn & a sewing machine.


                                  *

No I wouldn’t know why anyone would
want to write like that. I should never
have had to do it. We were used to this
other thing we always know like when we’re
here. And you have this clear head & you’re
seeing things & there they are. You don’t
notice they’re spelled. That’s how you
know you’re alive. I never saw you