Charles Bukowski
a single dog
walking alone on a hot sidewalk of
summer
appears to have the power
of ten thousand gods.
why is this?
Bukowski born 98 years ago today. The traditional Egoslavian Bukowski birthday post.
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a 340 dollar horse and a 100 dollar whore
Charles Bukowski
don’t ever get the idea I am a poet; you can see me
at the racetrack any day half drunk
betting quarters, sidewheelers and straight thoroughs,
but let me tell you, there are some women there
who go where the money goes, and sometimes when you
look at these whores these onehundreddollar whores
you wonder sometimes if nature isn’t playing a joke
dealing out so much breast and ass and the way
it’s all hung together, you look and you look and
you look and you can’t believe it; there are ordinary women
and then there is something else that wants to make you
tear up paintings and break albums of Beethoven
across the back of the john; anyhow, the season
was dragging and the big boys were getting busted,
all the non-pros, the producers, the cameraman,
the pushers of Mary, the fur salesman, the owners
themselves, and Saint Louie was running this day:
a sidewheeler that broke when he got in close;
he ran with his head down and was mean and ugly
and 35 to 1, and I put a ten down on him.
the driver broke him wide
took him out by the fence where he’d be alone
even if he had to travel four times as far,
and that’s the way he went it
all the way by the outer fence
traveling two miles in one
and he won like he was mad as hell
and he wasn’t even tired,
and the biggest blonde of all
all ass and breast, hardly anything else
went to the payoff window with me.
that night I couldn’t destroy her
although the springs shot sparks
and they pounded on the walls.
later she sat there in her slip
drinking Old Grandad
and she said
what’s a guy like you doing
living in a dump like this?
and I said
I’m a poet
and she threw back her beautiful head and laughed.
you? you . . . a poet?
I guess you’re right, I said, I guess you’re right.
but still she looked good to me, she still looked good,
and all thanks to an ugly horse
who wrote this poem.
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Charles Bukowski
ReplyDeleteme and Faulkner
sure, I know that you are tired of hearing about it, but
most repeat the same theme over and over again, it's
as if they were trying to refine what seems so strange
and off and important to them, it's done by everybody
because everybody is of a different stripe and form
and each must work out what is before them
over and over again because
that is their personal tiny miracle
their bit of luck
like now as like before and before I have been slowly
drinking this fine red wine and listening to symphony after
symphony from this black radio to my left
some symphonies remind me of certain cities and certain rooms,
make me realize that certain people now long dead were able to
transgress graveyards
and traps and cages and bones and limbs
people who broke through with joy and madness and with
insurmountable force
in tiny rented rooms I was struck by miracles
and even now after decades of listening I still am able to hear
a new work never heard before that is totally
bright, a fresh-blazing sun
there are countless sub-stratas of rising surprise from the
human firmament
music has an expansive and endless flow of ungodly
exploration
writers are confined to the limit of sight and feeling upon the
page while musicians leap into unrestricted immensity
right now it's just old Tchaikowsky moaning and groaning his
way through symphony #5
but it's just as good as when I first heard it
I haven't heard one of my favorites, Eric Coates, for some time
but I know that if I keep drinking the good red and listening
that he will be along
there are others, many others
and so
this is just another poem about drinking and listening to
music
repeat, right?
but look at Faulkner, he not only said the same thing over and
over but he said the same
place
so, please, let me boost these giants of our lives
once more: the classical composers of our time and
of times past
it has kept the rope from my throat
maybe it will loosen
yours
Well, you know I'M all good with this guy.
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